it’s been years since i can really say that "i’am happy", years had past, i’am still stuck in this fucking situation, sometimes i ask myself "what the hell am i doing? why am i wasting too much tym waiting".
but again ill all always tell myself that i love her… that she’s the one i want… even though she refuses like a million times, still i waited, nd i waited for nothing…i even tried to be in a relationship again, but i just can’t.. i just can’t…
i’am fucking lost, now i’am trying to find myself again, trying to up pick up the pieces lost.. trying.
i remember the days when i was so eager to see her smile… laugh… tell stories,i adored her, she was my bliss, but she’s gone,everything is over, dead over.
i did everything i could, i once fought for her… for us, but now i’am fighting to get out if it, fighting to to be somewhere better… hoping to be free from all this shit i have right now, hoping to find someone to fill this emptiness, but for now all i can do is hope…
it is so hard to when you feel completely complete,then a piece of you is suddenly gone
you want her to come back, cause you know now how it feels to be complete… but she wont,
a piece of you is now forever lost, nd will never be found again
this is my shitty life! in just a heartbeat, everything is a fuckin mess, and all i can do is try to find my way out, to be happy again… somehow.
sorry for not being the-guy-that-you-can-proudly-present-to-your-parents
sorry for being just me…
-JASON
